A Day In the Life..............

If I had to describe this year in one word...I would have to go with indifferent. To an extent life has jaded me to the point of being numb. I used to be sensitive to everything, I wonder which feeling is best...being able to show emotion or letting things roll off of me like water? I have love in my life and I am overjoyed about having her in my life. And to know she was right under my nose for years, thank God for bringing us together. She is smart, sexy, kind, assertive, and strong in every way. She allows me to be myself instead of me transforming into what I think she wants, and that was what sealed the deal for me. I'm not one for new year's resolutions but I am looking forward to 2011. My time is now....a chance to move to a new location, pursue my true calling (nursing), and for me and "my girls" to get closer and have a wonderful life together. I am finally seeing the happiness I have been chasing for years, thank you Lord!

Self Portrait

Staring at myself in the mirror, melancholy etched on my face.......I struggle to figure out who I am  really and what is my purpose. I have been thrown off the horse of life way to many times to count. Trying hard not to let my past hold my future prisoner, I admit I am scared to get out there and try again because I am afraid to fail. But this rut that I am in just isn't me. I refuse to be apart of the status quo. Dad always said, if you can look up then you can get up.....I appreciate this knowledge because that it what drives me to succeed each and every day. The Good Book says I am created for greatness, so who am I to argue with the Most High? One day at a time..one foot in front of another, here I come once again!! Do I know my next move? No.....but I serve the one who does. All I know is that I am HIS property and he only wants the best for his children. And that, in a nutshell, is good enough for me. Here I come world......here I come!! To be continued......